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Losing my faith and patience quickly in almost every aspect of my life. I feel like I'm always taking 5 steps forward just to be pushed back 20 more. I don't know what to do anymore. My best friend won't talk to me. I can't talk to anyone else....Sometimes I think I should just end everything...but I can't. Do you think some of us are just destined to be unhappy and unloved?

I try to be positive but I feel like it's stupid and unrealistic to even bother. I get sick of hearing "think happy thoughts". Who the fuck did that ever do anything for?! Ugh. Sorry but I literally have no one to talk to or at least not anyone I feel comfortable talking to...and the one person I do enjoy talking to is busy or hates me now. sigh........

I guess what I want to know is, how, despite anything to hope for,what keeps you going when everything in your life is falling apart?

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I'll talk with you, honey. What would make you happy? Do you know?

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Hillary?

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What would make you happy? Do you know?

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Oh no you didn't..

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SpaghettiOs and a 1/4 lb Big Bite from 7-11. Always makes me feel better.

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Do I know what would make me happy? Sure,but the universe,God,whatever just won't give me a break. It's like living with a curse. I'd be happy if just one damn thing would happen in my life. I keep waiting for it too but like I said...I think my biggest thing is that lately I just feel even more alone than I have in years. I know I sound like a whiney bitch,sorry. I just really don't know what to do. I feel like everyone and everything I love is being systematically removed from my life in one way or another. I have newly discovered health problems on top of everything else I stress over. Life is a bitch indeed! So tempted to start drinking again...

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well it is taboo to say so but life really does just plain suck. it's ok though but it's hard to get used to.

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Not bad. You know I really do fall for that stuff sometimes. At least I have feelings, I hope I always do. Suspending your disbelief can be a nice experience. It made Hollywood what it is today.

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Sometimes I wish I felt nothing. I even find myself envious of people who don't feel. Are you insinuating that I'm acting? I assure you this is no joke or act. I am stressed beyond my means and it's affecting everyone around me too. I'm just having a hard time understanding why I even try anymore. I don't go anywhere anymore really and I don't talk to anyone really either. It's been tough adjusting to all the changes in my life and there just seems to be never ending piles of shit being stacked against me. Being happy seems to come so easily to other people. Why not me?

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It's been tough adjusting to all the changes in my life

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Apparently I'm no good at it either :(

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I think the person who said you have to work it out on your own was right. You do. If you're not happy, try something different. You can't depend on other people to make you happy. Oh, and if drinking didn't help before, it definitely won't help now.

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I feel that a combination of being happy with and by one's self and being with your life companion, if there is such a thing, is the most fulfilling.

Actually I also think it's good for very close physically intimate companions to encourage one another to cultivate themselves and have free time for the individual to do what she/he needs to do and interact with variety of social interactions with a diverse range of people.


Both worlds can be experienced in what would otherwise be traditional monogamous physically intimate relationships.

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I don't rely on anyone for my own individual happiness. There are a few people who make me happy. Like my kids. They are the only reason I can't give up. I'm just tired of everything going wrong and being wrong. I just really need something good and stimulating in my life. I can't have extremely deep conversations with small children and I don't relate well with most people. I guess in all honesty I'm just tired of feeling perpetually alone...I miss my best friend :( I miss being happy. I miss so many things that I fear I'll never have in my life again. I'm just depressed with life and nearly everything and everyone in it. I need some friggin hope. The future looks so bleak from where I'm standing. Sigh....enough whining and ranting about crap that no one really cares about anyway LOL.

I will say that I would like to have the kind of relationship the other poster described. It sounds nice and happy. I won't hold my breath on that ever happening though.

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getting older seems to also mean getting aloner. Nobody ever has time to just hangout together. A few to many relatioship failiers and it starts seeming like whats the use, nothing ever works out.

Mostly I deal with it by just giving up and being glad the months go by faster. I tried for years to be happy, now I just get pleasantly surprised when it happens but I don't try.

I've been thinking of getting my phone diconnected, nothing much comes of the money payed for the bill and it annoys me that I get more soliciters than freinds calling.

I find my self wondering if there might be some terminal velocity to boredom.

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Oh snap out of it, honey pie. You can come and stay with me for few.

You'll see.. my lifestyle might be good for you in the interim, until you know what you want to do.:snagging:

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Goddamned spellcheck changes snogging to snagging every time.

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disconecting the phone would also disconect the internet which might be a good thing. Typing to people I don't know at all and most likely never will to keep from feeling lonely does the opposit. I'm just to chicken to do it so I tell myself work requires I have a phone but I also know I no longer need work.

I know I can't spell . I found out 50 years ago so don't think your bringing important info if you tell me.. I really don't care and it gives a little difference to my posts that no one knows who the hell is posting.

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ok enough of the attention whoring
if youre posting here about this stuff, i know youre not serious about changing anything

if you feel nothing can change, suicide is always an option...

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lol I hardly think you reading it counts as attention of the kind you speak of. Your just bored to. Suicides been an option since I was 11 and it occured to me I could. Wierd thing is I have an incredible survival instinct and I have no hope of ever doing it.

Plus I still want, "to find a cure for irony and make a fool outa God". { the waitresses- "wasn't tomorrow wonderful" }

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Wierd thing is I have an incredible survival instinct and I have no hope of ever doing it.

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Your right that I'm not serious about changing stuff, it might of showed when I said I gave up. However the op seems to maybe be inclined to ,and for the sake of perspective I thought it might be interesting for her to read about my experiance with concluding life sucks and that I might as well quit trying to make it a happy place.

I kinda figured it might help her resolve to do somthing and not be like me or on the other hand maybe I would connect with someone of a simpatico nature.

I in no way suggest anyone try this at home

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I find the response of shutup if you aren't trying to be happy common and curious. Is it because you are scared of the futillity of it all? Just asking since I run in to it now and again and can't figure out why it bothers people if I don't give a flip about being happy.

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you are the op

I in no way suggest anyone try this at home

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lol not me the ops that got me rattling on and now I kinda regret it. I thought the differences were rether obvious. Sorry for the confusion but oh well its AE and we cowards all look alike.

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Plus I still want, "to find a cure for irony and make a fool outa God".

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No, she just wants to get laid.

She requires people to play along, until her cycle runs it's course.

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She who?

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She who?

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MaM an Big Cynthia. Same/Same ??

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^^^delusional retards.

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She's much too stubborn but then again so am I.

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As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives.

Henry David Thoreau

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Ah the sweet irony of quoting Henry David Thoreau on a constantly trashed and trivialised message board the exists in a Thoreau away society.




the cure is out there